Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Sick baby

Nathan got sick last night. 

3am in respiratory distress. ER. 10m24d. Same presentation as Eva. 

Suspected RSV. Chest x ray in the nasty clear tube that brought me to tears when it was used on my little Eva. 

Admitted. Room next door to Eva's room. RSV swab came back negative. Possible early pneumonia in right lobe according to our paediatrician in the city. However, no fever and no antibiotics here. Stay the course unless he becomes feverish. 

Ventalyn. Chest physio. Cardiac leads. Lovely sinus rhythm that brings peace to my mama's heart. 

Two nurses who remember Eva and mention her to me. A blessing. 

I don't want another sick child. I just want my sick little Eva back to me. 

Nathan is improving. Turning around. Thank God. 

But do I only thank him when my child lives?





12 comments:

  1. (((hugs))) How scary that must have been! He is adorable and looking happy in the picture and that is good :) Hope he is home soon!

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    1. Cheryl, he is home now. I wrote the post in the hospital but there was no wifi there so I had to wait until home to publish. We were only in hospital 36 hours or so. But long enough...it wasn't scary at the time..but now, at home, it's hitting me...

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  2. Wow, so scary. So glad he's ok and getting better. What a blessing that two nurses remembered Eva and said something!
    ~Renee

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    1. Oh Renee, it was a huge blessing to have Eva remembered and mentioned by those kind nurses.

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  3. Oh boy. That's so, so tough, Em. I'm so glad he's all right. All those memories...

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    1. It wasn't so bad MIFD. I thought it would be worse.

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  4. So happy to see that he's okay! You're brave and strong to be able to face that place again. Praying for your peace and comfort tonight!

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  5. I'm so glad he's doing OK. I can't imagine how hard it must have been to go to the hospital again with a sick child. We remember you and your family in our prayers.

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    1. Thank you Angela, it's good to hear from you. It wasn't as hard as I thought to go there but I find myself exhausted now.

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  6. Oh, Em. That must have been so awful. I can't even imagine. I'm so glad that Nathan is well and healing. Winter can be so hard on the littles. My Samuel would get so sick in the winters when he was small, and that was before I knew the heartbreak of the death of a child. Take good care of yourselves <3 Spring is coming!

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    1. Thank you for stopping in Suzanne. It's good to hear from you. Yes, a dead child certainly changes any perspective we have on healing...

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