Tuesday, October 14, 2014

The birthday girl will not appear.

It's in the silence of the night before your birthday that I miss you most. 

Tomorrow will be busy...it's tonight...

Tonight I should be piling your presents on the red plate. Starting your birthday cake so we could decorate it together tomorrow morning. Writing you a message on the chalkboard. Blowing balloons. 

But instead there is nothing to do tonight. So I do nothing. 

The birthday girl will not appear. I miss you my princess Eva.

 I wish I could go into your room and snap a picture of you sleeping. Our last moments with you as a three year old. But I cannot. And I miss you with every ounce of my being. I miss you.


  1. I'm so sorry, Em. I will light an extra candle tonight for Eva, on her fourth birthday.

  2. I'm sorry, Em. I'm sorry you have to endure another birthday eve without your sweet Eva.

    Praying the LORD is near you today, and you feel his presence and comfort. Praying your grief drives you to Him and strengthens your faith more and more. Praising Him that your hope is not empty, but will surely come.

  3. Oh, Em. I hope yesterday was...whatever you needed it to be, which will never be enough. <3 Eva <3