Tuesday, January 21, 2014


I made a mistake yesterday. I went into the Carter's store. I was assaulted by girl clothes with hearts on them. Tunics with ladybugs and hearts. Cream coloured onesies with a big red heart on the front. 

Hearts, hearts everywhere...

Valentines is no longer a one day affair...it seems we need to lead up to it like we do Christmas. 

And every heart is for Eva. Every heart wrenches my heart. Christmas is over and I thought I would enter a time of having a breather but now I have hearts to avoid.

In some ways valentines is worse than Christmas because I know all those hearts would have been so special for us had our special heart girl lived here on earth.


  1. Ouch, how painful.

    You've been on my mind as Nathan approaches 10 months as well.

  2. Hi Em, I just found your blog from your comment on Angela's blog. I clicked over to read your story and immediately recognized you from your article in Above Rubbies. I am so happy to have found your blog! Your article touched me so much and I thought about you many time after reading it. I am so very sorry you had to say goodbye to your beautiful daughter. It will be wonderful to get to read more about your family. I wish Above Rubbies would include blog address in the info about the author! We'll I joined your blog so I will be following along:) praying you find comfort as valentines approaches.

    1. I have also read your story in AR. I chose to not put my blog address with the article even though I could have. Those who need my blog will find it. There are enough links to it here and there from baby and child loss sites. I also found yours through your comment on Angela's blog :)