Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Store up your treasures...

As more and more things from the time we had with Eva fade away or crack or break or get tossed for some reason or another I realize how fleeting this world is. How fleeting this life is. 

A couple of days ago I grabbed some instant noodle bowls for the kids to eat. I didn't realize quite how old they were until the kids refused to eat them cause they were so stale. I rarely let my kids give any of their food to the dogs but this, this they could not eat. I found them something else to eat and jokingly told Mike about it later. He said he was surprised we still had those around. They were from the holiday trailer. The holiday trailer. The holiday trailer we hadn't been in since our very last holiday with Eva where she first got sick. The holiday trailer we've since sold because it always felt, to me, like she died in that trailer. So, I knew exactly how old those noodle bowls were. 2.5 years old. And that's when it struck me how this world gets stale. This world gets old and worn, dusty and cracked, and stale. 

The things from Eva's time are aging, cracking, getting old and stale. Time passes here but my love and my yearning for Eva are as fresh as they were 2.5 years ago. I don't notice how the 'things' from the other kids' get old because they get new stuff but Eva's time...Eva's things are finite and I can see them growing old and stale. 

Do not store up your treasure on earth where moths and rust destroy but store up your treasure in heaven, because where your treasure is there your heart will be also, the bible tells us in Matthew 6:19-21. I can tell you that now I much better understand that verse. This world grows stale. Money, couches, rugs...it all grows stale and there is not one earthly thing you can take with you so, my dears, store up your treasure in heaven because where your treasure is there your heart will be also. 

This life is not for keeps but heaven is forever. I anticipate the day. 

My treasure and my heart is in heaven.  

"He is no fool who gives up what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose" - Jim Elliot. 


  1. I'm so emotional reading this.

  2. Beautifully true - it is hard to let go of the physical links though. It takes so long to realise that they won't be a further loss. I still have the chocolate C chose a few days before she died. It always cracks me up that she only ate one piece. It's only recently that I've been able to bin things. I think I worried that she woudl be more dead. Yet there is no more deader than dead. That sinks in eventually, doesn't it xx

  3. Yes, at first I couldn't let go of anything that was Eva's. It was like her dying all over again but you said it right...there's no deader than dead with or without the items she touched.