Tomorrow will be busy...it's tonight...
Tonight I should be piling your presents on the red plate. Starting your birthday cake so we could decorate it together tomorrow morning. Writing you a message on the chalkboard. Blowing balloons.
But instead there is nothing to do tonight. So I do nothing.
The birthday girl will not appear. I miss you my princess Eva.
I wish I could go into your room and snap a picture of you sleeping. Our last moments with you as a three year old. But I cannot. And I miss you with every ounce of my being. I miss you.