My life is sliced very cleanly into the me before Eva died and the me after Eva died.
I neverinamillionyears thought my child would die once she made it out of icu.
I was so lucky I didn't know how lucky I was. When I look at pictures of me before there is no glint
of sadness in my eyes and I looked young.
I loved my family and felt complete with them. I also was fearful for my kids in a different way than I am now.
Here I am with my two oldest boys when they were just about the same age as my two rainbow boys are now. I no longer look this happy.