Sunday, June 1, 2014
One of the lies I believed.
Today Samuel, Vincent, Theodore were so rambunctious at church. Hitting, whining, fighting, crying that I felt literally overwhelmed to tears with the not knowing what to do with them...and then satan whispered in my ear that everyone in church could see that Eva died because it's obvious I can't even take care of the kids I have. I knew it was a lie but it buried itself into me and took root in my heart so stubbornly that the tears just kept coming. I wondered if that was the truth, even while I knew that it was a lie. I really felt like satan got the better of me as I struggled through the myriad of emotions inflicted upon me today.