Thursday, March 27, 2014

Not angry.

I have come to realize in the last few weeks that most of the time, most of the time, not all of the time, I am no longer burning with anger over Eva's death.

It's not over. I'm still sad. I still miss her, and always will, but I am not angry all of the time. 

This is huge.

I'm not sure when it happened but I realized all of a sudden that my heart hasn't been clenched with anger most of the last few weeks. 

I'm surprised and I know it will come back but it's a reprieve for awhile, for now.

Miss you always my sweet girl.

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  1. I think sometimes it's far more exhausting to be angry than to be sad x

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  2. So glad you are feeling angry less. It is amazing that any of us survive, never mind the grief actually getting softer over time. I think that you had said that someone told you that the grief gets better over time, but the anniversaries of their birthday and passing get harder. I would say that is very true for me. Blessings, Cheryl

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    1. I sometimes find it unbelievable that I have survived. And survived really is the right word. I'm not in anniversary time right now, but it's coming.

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  3. I am also not angry anymore. Of course I am at certain people sometimes but not everyone, and god, and humanity all of the time. I think that stage is normal - this one probably is too. Xoxo

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