Anger is the hardest to cope with. It just springs out of nowhere and rages!
The sheer loneliness and missing of Eva has been the hardest long-term.
The wondering what she would be like.
The missing person in our family photos.
The pink that could have been here.
How am I coping?
Forgiving myself for the anger. Praying and hoping that tomorrow is lighter.
Making time to spend with her and mother her in the ways that I can.
Planting pink flowers for her.
Looking at little girls the same age she would have been with tears and wonder.
Having her photo in our family photos.
Talking about her openly with people, despite the discomfort. She is part of our family.
Blogging.
Ugh, yes, the anger. I've had quite a bit of that myself today.
ReplyDeleteThe loneliness and missing, it goes on forever.