tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post5805591969318284916..comments2023-04-01T03:49:22.593-07:00Comments on After Eva: Nathan and Eva.Emhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11910371746336686970noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post-2236099302728916852013-06-10T20:02:45.461-07:002013-06-10T20:02:45.461-07:00Dear bohomamasoul,
I am so sorry about the loss of...Dear bohomamasoul,<br />I am so sorry about the loss of your longed-for third baby. Yes, the darkness is so black and so all-encompassing. To be honest, before Nathan was born I wasn't able to even look at blogs whose mamas had rainbows. I simply ignored them. It was just too painful. I know I am in an enviable place...the luckiest of the unlucky as I would call myself, although there is more to our story than meets the eye...isn't there always? I checked out your blog but there were no posts yet. What was your little one's name? Would you like to share his story?<br />Sending you love and hope as you navigate these unchartered waters.<br />EmEmhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11910371746336686970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post-6934519851789170472013-06-10T19:43:31.822-07:002013-06-10T19:43:31.822-07:00you are in an enviable place. i would give anythi...you are in an enviable place. i would give anything, everything to have four beautiful children in my life. i would give my whole world, every material possession that sits in my crowded, tiny house to have as many children as you do. we lost our longed-for third baby on march 27th of this year. we have two boys and i just turned 32 and i don't know if i'll ever get to have five children. i look at you and i'm jealous. i don't know what i did to deserve this pain, this disappointment that is my loss and my shattered heart and my slowly eroding soul. i have no idea what to believe in anymore. pain is relative. our pain and suffering is ours alone, and it can't be compared to anyone. i'm so sorry you lost your baby girl. i'm still in that horrid place of not knowing if there will ever be a rainbow for me because i'm sitting in the eye of the storm. i feel stuck there, storms all around me and no end in sight. yet the silence is deafening, devastating. see, i look to you and beg god or the universe or whatever is in charge of our destinies to give me just a small piece of the gift you've been given. because we've both lost so much, but only one of us has been given to freely. i would do anything to have what you have, sweet babylost sister. bohomamasoulhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12957368916925315915noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post-57354107990095274112013-05-07T21:04:48.994-07:002013-05-07T21:04:48.994-07:00Yes. I really really get this. You've said it ...Yes. I really really get this. You've said it so well. March is for daffodilshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11287273786322029725noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post-21922096540309865402013-05-07T18:40:18.017-07:002013-05-07T18:40:18.017-07:00I had no idea you read my blog Chantelle. Thank yo...I had no idea you read my blog Chantelle. Thank you for commenting. I always appreciate it.Emhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11910371746336686970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post-52714503052202883532013-05-07T18:39:21.848-07:002013-05-07T18:39:21.848-07:00Dichotomy is right amanda. Who knew my heart could...Dichotomy is right amanda. Who knew my heart could feel so torn and yet so whole...Emhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11910371746336686970noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post-65094022305139149732013-05-07T11:03:15.843-07:002013-05-07T11:03:15.843-07:00Tears flowed, what a beautiful post. A beautiful ...Tears flowed, what a beautiful post. A beautiful boy and we rejoice with you (and yet remember sweet Eva). Congratulations on your new 'hope', he couldn't be more perfect!chantellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08995153705872262491noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post-60501904007074904212013-05-07T07:15:31.150-07:002013-05-07T07:15:31.150-07:00Beautifully said, sweet mama. You capture the dic...Beautifully said, sweet mama. You capture the dichotomy of the grief and joy that comes with being a BLM who has a rainbow.Amandahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09125527529140120469noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post-83554060184345078862013-05-06T16:32:55.413-07:002013-05-06T16:32:55.413-07:00I rejoice in the joy of Nathan's sweet life an...I rejoice in the joy of Nathan's sweet life and the blessing that he is to your heart. "A baby: There is no greater miracle. No greater proof of God's love." And I love the picture of Eva's little brother. He is soooo cute! :)<br /> Beccyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07063220741169180825noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post-16832103733766772022013-05-06T14:33:46.225-07:002013-05-06T14:33:46.225-07:00A beautiful post A beautiful post sallyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03609439637500935636noreply@blogger.com