tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post3089377874400953874..comments2023-04-01T03:49:22.593-07:00Comments on After Eva: A gift?Emhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11910371746336686970noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post-63825932831917188342012-10-21T23:40:28.577-07:002012-10-21T23:40:28.577-07:00Oh Em I think these things too...but differently b...Oh Em I think these things too...but differently because Camille died at full term. Many people discuss the fear of have a child with special needs. No one ever says I am so scared my child will die before they are born. I would much perfer the former than the later. I would prefer a living child. I don't think my husband would prefer and child who needed special care. He was a special education teacher and really know the challenges these kids face and their parents face on a different level. I just wish my daughter had lived. I just want you to know you are not alone in these thoughts. Sending loveRenelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08490888250385942221noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post-33710077888128166222012-10-21T01:39:24.910-07:002012-10-21T01:39:24.910-07:00Don't - just don't.
I think it is normal ...Don't - just don't.<br /><br />I think it is normal to think about other horrifying alternative scenarios, but that way madness lies. When I find myself doing this, and I have similar issues from that day... I try and stop myself. I think we have enough to deal with dealing with what actually happened, without having to contemplate how we would cope with other awful things.<br /><br />I suppose part of the temptation is that I have been told by others (and I am sure you have too) that it is better that Catherine died than that she ended up with horrible disabilities. But we shouldn't think about it - we should concentrate on coping with what happened, rather than imagining how it could be horrible but different.<br /><br />Big hug to you both xxSusanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08189847375191755096noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76554524397208747.post-91129773204248334532012-10-19T17:20:38.406-07:002012-10-19T17:20:38.406-07:00You do have a wonderful gift growing inside you :)...You do have a wonderful gift growing inside you :)<br /><br />To be honest this is something I think about often. I did CPR and it took 40 minutes for the ambulance to get here and they carried on working until the air ambulance arrived. When she was taken to hospital as they loaded her into the ambulance they managed to get a weak pulse. I often wonder what would have happened if she had pulled through, but more than likely even though I would have loved every bit of her she wouldn't have been the girl I knew beforesallyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03609439637500935636noreply@blogger.com